Closure

I want closure! I want an end. I want to be me. I want to be myself. I look for closures everywhere. I look for the ending of a book.

I look for the ending

of a movie.

I just want everything to end. I want to smash me to smithereens and be reborn.

Crumple and cry, Fold myself and breathe --- inhale and exhale.

I don’t want to be judged anymore. I don’t want to be glared at anymore, I don’t want to be pinpointed anymore,

I want to be free.

I just want me back.

I want to be invisible. I want to vanish. I just want to disappear.

I want to cry, Till my heart hurts, Tears unshed, there are myriad.

Tired of the gnawing silence within me, I can't stand this anymore.

Praying for a closure.

Suffocating myself, closing myself in a room.

A decade of silence, I want to end it. A decade of darkness – just want to end it.

I want my sunshine back.

I want to laugh aloud. I want to swim in deep waters. I want to run free in the sand. I just want to be me!

Is it a crime to be me?? Is it wrong to be myself? Is it bad to speak out? Is it bad to crumble? I just want to be me!