Unbound tears

How easy would it be, she thought? A device where you just press a button and vanish. No sweat. No blood. No tears. Just vanish, she thought! 

Her mere existence to all, such an inconvenience after all! 

If only it were easy to end life and move on to the next, and the next, and the next. Guaranteed "no toxicity". Guaranteed "loads of peace". Guaranteed  "forever sleep". Guaranteed "forever happiness". Just open the gates, press the button and "pooooof"! 

If it were my choice, I would have made this device loooooong ago! 

I just wanted to vanish somewhere - where my traces wouldn't be traced, where I could be ME, where I did not have to be someone else. where I could just swim in a limitless ocean and not look back, where I would find a soulmate who would have me for what I am. 

Flowing unbound tears down the cheeks, 
Drenched by a flooded river!